I always felt the bigness of my calling & this weird impeding timeline…
I remember when I was in the 4th grade thinking something is coming…
Then in my twenties I felt that sense again & rung my parents sharing I felt this deep sense that there was something coming for me to do & would they stand with me, they agreed…
I remember people along my life making comments of that that is coming to my life…
And when I surrendered fully to Jesus.
I knew.
It was always you.
It was always what you have designed & created me for to be revealed.
To reveal you through me.
I reflected on my short but wild beautiful expansive ride with the Lord this year…
I read over 24 books…..
Attended 4 conferences…
Attended over 20 courses, masterclasses, masterminds…
Trained in several academies….
Nearly completed the Bible with 2 chapters left…
Rooted in a church….
Took courses at church…
Started a prayer group…
Attended a connect group…
Started volunteering at church…
Last year I literally read maybe a book?
Last year I did a couple courses on self self self…
Barely had in person community….
Never attended church…
No volunteering at all…
All that to say I BOAST in my weakness. I could never do all this by self exalting or self will.
Many people will say…
“Oh she’ll burn out…”
“Oh I was on fire once upon a time…”
“Oh she better be careful”
And if I was doing this in my own self will I would SO agree with you.
He can do what I could never do.
It is He that strengthens me, restores me, replenishes my soul, quenches my thirst, feeds me daily.
I pray this often…
Father God
Thank you for my hunger & fire.
Please keep it alive in me as I add logs to the fire.
I thank you deeply for gifting me this.
I know without you or your gifting I could easily backslide or slow down.
I thank you for all you pour into me.
In Jesus Name.
Amen.
I realise that I will trigger, offend & upset plenty of people. They will make up stories of why I’m on fire, or why I did it or how I’m doing it.
Be clear ALL GLORY GOES TO GOD.
God said to me early on…
“I will reveal more of who I am through you & awaken those who have forgotten. When they say slow down or stop it is not you. Listen to me, lean on me, run to me. I will restore & replenish you.”
The moment I surrendered & utter the words…
“Shake take & break all that you did not design me for, create me for & is not of your will.”
He did.
And finally what I have been searching for in all the wrong places came to life.
My real identity which has always been tucked away in Him.
When anyone tells you you are not enough, too much, annoying, offensive, slow, too fast or whatever it may be remember…
God says you are..
Fearfully & wonderfully made. Psalm 139:14
Chosen. Isaiah 41:9
The Apple of His eye. Psalm 17:8
Clothed with strength & dignity. Proverbs 31:25
Your calling.
Your purpose.
Your anointing.
Your destiny.
Is all hidden within Him.
Seek, ask, knock. Matthew 7:7-9
Seek like really SEEEEEK & he will reveal everything you have ever wanted to know. Jeremiah 33:3
I love you.
So does Jesus.
So does the Father.
So much, humility is the way back home.
The 40day detox is coming!!
40days all in, pressing in with prayer & peeling all distractions away particular social media.
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